追进的我的心清。

觉得闷焖的。好像心里被一块很大很大的石头压着，
想哭又不失，想笑也不是。
表面上的我可能笑的很开心，
但其实有时候越开心，反而是在掩饰心中的伤心。
有时候默默的躲在一旁自己的流泪。
为何流泪，我也不知道，只知道觉得很辛苦，很累，想休息。
我有时也不明白。

傻女孩，有回头！！

因为你的冷漠， 让我的心顿时的迷失了方向。
所以后来的我，不停的压缩自己，欺骗自己。

脸上总是带着一副笑容，
但心里头的滋味，却也没人看得透。

但不知不觉中，你有填满了我心里的空洞。
让我发现我原来还真正的放不下你。

变了。

我从来没指望过你会对我好，因为从一开始，我亦知道是个错误。
我本来告诉自己，千万不能陷下去，
可以喜欢你，但不能爱上你。

有时候爱你就有如折磨自己，因为我猜不透你到底是如何的看我。
你对我忽冷忽热的态度，令我难以抓摸你的心意。
但我就是不肯认输，宁愿相信那也是一种希望。
期望用我的真心与诚意，打动你的心，让你发现我的身影。
以为我可以等你，等到你看见我的存在，
但岁月慢慢的流失，我们也慢慢成长。
我以前的无知，不代表我以后的愚蠢。

我那天找到了和你同类的人，让我发现到我原来是一只住在海里的鱼。
外面的世界是多么的精彩。
虽然说，我还是没完全的放下你。
在我心中，你依然保留了一扇门，还是为你而打开，
但在这同时我再也不会锁上其它的门了。
只是你的门前有一盏灯和一个已打开的心窗，而其它的门是没有的。

相处

为一个人死，谈何容易，

这只需要头脑里一时的冲动。

但和一个人相处却是那么的难。

这需要的不是一时冲动，

而是每天的迁就着对方，

彼此了解对方的感受，明白对方的想法；

不可以应为一时的冲动而做出一些无法挽回的事，

倒是要这么挽回也太晚了。

若你已彻底的伤害了她的心，就算是这么挽回，

那疤痕依然是存在的。

你可知道失去一个人的信任是个多么容易的事，

而重新建立会彼此的信任不是一天就能做到的。

信任是经过多少岁月的磨练与痕迹来互相创造出来。

有人说，女人的心就像一颗完美的玻璃，

它有它一定的坚持度，

若你疼爱它，不去伤害它，

那片玻璃就永远都会那么完美和清澈的。

可是以当玻璃碎了，

它就会撒得满地都是碎片。

若你不管那片破碎的玻璃，

以然把它忽略在地上，那片玻璃就有可能割到自己。

但这片玻璃，永远都会是个有裂痕的玻璃了。

你可以说我笨，我傻，但我还是愿意等你。
你可以认为我是个白痴，但我还是愿意默默守护你。

你可能不知道，只要看到你，我就会兴奋。
你可能不知道，只要站在你旁边，我就会开心。
你可能不知道，每次听到你的声音，我都会觉得很快乐。
你可能也不知道，每次等着你来接我，我都会很波不急待等着你的出现。
你更加不会知道，每当我到了家门口，我有多么多么不想下车，
多么希望时间可以停顿下来，应为我不知道有要等到何时我才能又见到你。

只要你的一句话，我就会想尽办法的帮你。
只要你的一句话，我就会愿意陪着你。
也只要你的一句话，我就属于你的。

为何你看不出我对你的用心？？
为何你不明白我的心意？？
为何你听不出我喜欢你？？
为何你不敢拿出一点勇气？？
那为何你又要对我那么好？？？？？

难道是我不够好吗？
难道是我误会了吗？？
难道只是我一厢情愿吗？？？

如果真的是我一厢情愿而已，我也不会怪你，
应为可能是我表达到不够明确。
如果是我一厢情愿而已，我还是愿意等你回心转意。
如果是我一厢情愿，我愿意做那个在背后支持你的人。
如果真的是我自己一厢情愿而已，你喜欢另一个她，我也会真心的祝福你。
然后选择安静的离开你，只会在你需要我的时候，忽然的出现。

我到底算什么？

why ask me??

why not other frenz of urs??

why do you take the trouble to come all the way to my house when you are already there,

just to pick me up and help you choose a few shirts..

why isit when you need company,

you will not hesitate to ask me??

dont you know how i feel about you,

but i cant read your thoughts!!!

why when ur fren missunderstand that you come out pak toh wit me,

you did not deny??

or are all guys like that???

why do you want me to give you opinion whether it was nice or not?

why do you need me to wait out side the dressing room for you??

why when i offer to help you fold ur sleeves,

you did not refuse my offer??

why dint you say that you could do it ur self ??

why must you tell me that the first person you think of is me,

when you wanted to go shopping??

why do you buy the tie i choose for you??

but usually we do not have much to talk about.

and dun see each other often too..

can some one pls tell me what deos this mean!!!

trip to china.

well, just came back from trip, which was really tiring, but fun, made lots of new frenz during the trip, they were all so nice, friendly and funny people.. there were 16 of us oni, it was a small tour group, so everybody had a chance to interact with each other.. talking to all those jie jie and ko ko was really nice, they were really cute..

first day arrive at Hang Zhou, it was really nice and kinna roomantic. the enviroment thr was really nice as the goverment of china control the polution at that area.. they have a saying that 上有天堂， 下有苏杭. the scenery thr was really nice, lots of couple just sit beside the lake and pak toh there. then later we went to Su Zhou. we went to the silk factory, do you know that silk is wat we use to make bullet prove shirt? damn cool.. we tried to poke through ten layers or strech out silk and couldn't penetrate it. according to the tour guide there, if you put a piece of silk under ur bed, you wont get "feng sap" , you can try that out for ur self.. silk is know to keep you warm during winter and cool during summer, and then more sceneries.

then later that, we went to the jed place. 玉碎，人平安，they say jed can protect us. 3 things to see whether the jed is real, use the jed and scratch the glass, and the jed its still fine, 2nd listen to the sound whether its 青翠or not, lastly see the jed whether is clear 清澈 under the ligth.

and so on so on la... dint really had much time for shopping, and the things there ain't that cheap as you think. do you know the Bata shoes there is selling for like 300-500 RMB which is like RM150 -250 here. a small advise,never go shopping at shopping complex, its like super expensive.. if you wanna shop, go to those places where you get to bargain, it so much cheaper.. you can bargain like 70% the price they offer you. if not just walk away, and some may come after you to sell the things to you..

still got lots of things, but lazy write d.. next time la, if i ever remember...