i know i should be sleeping now, but i cant...

my headis fill with all sorts of thoughts now....

A guy tat once liked me finally found someone,

im happy for him.

but sometimes i wonder, izit my lost that i did not treasure him when i had the chance to??

After so many similar cases,

they always end up with someone else, but never me.

why dint i grab hold to the chance that i had once?

I guess im just too scared,

i was hurt once, and ONCE was enough!!

Its enough for me to never take second chances in LOVE.

Knowing how bad even a merely happen relationship realy hurt,

its enough for me to holdmy self back..

Although he doesn't really matters to me now,

and we are just frenz.

but i can never seem to forget the pain..

NOT the pain that he caused,

but the PAIN of how does bad relationships end up to be...

I just feel lonely sometimes, and wonder how will it be like to be loved...

the GUILT

i feel a guilt in me,

a guilt that its carved inside my heart...

i can never forget that day,

If i did not stun thr,

if i had did something,

if i had stay and not go,

maybe you will still be with me....

you were always my best listener..

although you never replied me,

but you will never turn ur back on me...

i miss you so much,

how many times when i sat alone,

i think of you...

tears just start to burst out of me...

how i wish i know whr are you rite now...

and even how more i wish you can be by my side everytime i need you...

but you're gone,

gone for good...

i cant tell you how sry i was and am for leaving you...

i love you,

if you are out thr now,

i hope you will find someone who love you more than me...

TO : Coco with LOVE...

Flash Backs

looking back throughout this year....
this year i would say till now its not a very happy year for me...
things has changed...
some change for the better, but others....
almost one year, wat have i done this year???
why do i feel so lost now????
dint i benefit throughout this year???
i cant smile now, i just feel so confuse,
and like i wasted my whole year..
ppl around me has changed,
i have changed...
i duno for the better or worst,
but i'm sure i've changed....
all i know now its im not very satisfy!!!!
nobody will ever see the tears behind my eyes.....

there we go on a merry go round again...

round and round the marry go round goes,

you and me sitting opposite each other,

sometimes i see you but most of the times i dont,

but as long as the marry go round goes,

you and me will always be alone....

now its all starting again rite.

few days back you took me out,

sure i was happy, but not as much compare to before.

today you stop texting me,

then coming months i lost contact with you...

and then you come find me again..

just like a marry go round..

the cycle just repeating till one of us decides to get of..

sometimes i wonder,

why you even bother finding me??

can you just stop this nonsense.

THANKS FOR KEEPING YOUR PROMISE...