nobody knows me.

nobody wants to know me.

nobody wants to give in effort to know me.

everybody just assume they know me,

but that what they think only,

they actually just see me on the outside,

but they never understand what is i the inside.

college

holiday is no holiday!!!
sob sob sob!!!

lets talk bout college life...
well, ppl i meet thr aren't bad i guess...
thr is 29 ppl i my P3 class, and oni 7 guy!!!
1 kinda weird, 1 writting super tiny, 1 speak damn soft,
1 thinks hia an angel, 1 have big nose, 1 smoke but is trying to cut down
and 1 i dun really know yet!!!

the girls!!
me, super awesome(*cough cough*):P
anna, qian da, karren, hou yi aka commander, long irene,
cutie kim, lame mei yih and funny alicia!!!
the middle table(noisy)
laugh at annabel, darling shiela, jullian sweet heart,
evil rachel tan ang another rachel goh, boobies fiona keke,
and class wrap deetraa(pretty)
third table,
jing yi dai ka jie, annoying and most complains karyee,
jiggly li theng, miss li yung and phang phang de mei kuan!!!

yup all my class mates,
dun think i missed out any!!!hope not!!
guy im close with in the class,
angus dai ko, big bully too, always tease me..
jeremy the devil but smartie pants...
justin with the squicky voice and talks super fast..
and
kay who dunno how to play chor dai di!!!

overall i'll say my class is not bad, kinda fun!!!
and you know wat!!!
my maths teacher used a sign diagram too find out who is lazy and hard working in class'_'"
screw all thise assignments man!!!
and in at the forth floor!!!
walking up and down everyday is a damn"good" exercise!!!

i think tat's bout all of my class!!!
till next time!!

NEW BUT NO MORE OLD???

after more interaction with college ppl

i feel tat college life isn't tat bad!!

but is kinda tired!!

i met new frenz n made some good frens in college!!!

but most of all, i met someone!!!

(dun get the wrong idea)

although he is a guy,

and i just know him recently!!!

but somehow, i think he is a good guy!!

but does tat mean i forget the old one???

im not sure too!!!

i guess things like tat would not be forgotten so easily...

it will just be burried deep inside till somebody really has the power to earase it!!!

so i guess its the same for me!!

looking through all my photos, ive realise!!!

although i miss my high skool frenz alot,

but now in my college life,

i oso made new frenz!!

without having to seperate from them,

i would not realise those days how much they meant to me...

walking through out side those classes..

seeing n spying all my frens during class was so much fun!!!

running fron class to class when teacher are not around,

hiding away from those discipline teacher,

those days will never come back again!!

tat day i met a discipline teacher outside in a coffe shop!!

i am no longer scared of her,

amd no longer need to hide from her,

cause i know,

im not under her conrtol anymore..

she is no longer responsible for wat i do!!

i've grow up!!!

too all those who are still in high school,

treasure ur moments with ur frens thr,

not long later u will know tat u r gonna be apart!!

after taking all the advise from a close fren

n my most beloved ko,

i did it!!!

but after it, everything just went back to normal!!!

but i sort of tot it would be like tat..

EXPECTED!!

but at least i still did it!!!

and im still alive!!! hahaha...

BROGA!!!

what a unforgettable experience!!!

we started journey at 3.30a.m.++

then 1hr or more reach there!!!

climb up like not so hard la, but go down damn scary!!

cause it was muddy...

walao, first time go there then heavy rain!!!

damn cold lo at the top..

got so much mist, lucky got hot tea, if not can freeze wei!!!

no umbrella n rain coat, sit down there under the rain for almost 2 hrs oso got,

at the top 1st peek of the mountain,

freezing man, all soak n wet, n the wind so strong!!!

lucky there got other ppl,

if not oni 4 of us damn scary lo, so dark n coooooold!!!

i think 5 something only rain stop!!!

n we dint get to see sun rise!!!

geramnya!!!

must go again someday!!!

next time go wat oso bring!!!

dun wanna have same experience like tis time anymore!!!

will not give up till i get to see the sun rise!!

Never Perfect Heart Again

maybe some of u ppl who knows me would think im very

sam pat(38), very fan,

annoying at times, crazy, fierce, stupid n always looks happy..

but i doubt any of u had seen the real side of me,

even with my 'bestest' frenz,

i never really show the true me..

always faking some smile on to my bloodless white face..

i always believed in all fairy tales n love it so much...

but as time pass, i came to realise the real world isn't like tat...

i do not know why, how, n when did i started faking my self,

but i know that there was once i almost lost my true self..

im not kidding!!!

u may think tat how can u loose ur self,

well if u never experience u will never know..

now, to all my high school frenz,

i really love most of u guys alot,

although i may not mean anything to most of u guys,

but u guys really meant alot alot alot to me...

words cant really do justice on how i feel bout u guys,

but i really did treasure the time v had...

i know after leaving chs,

v would all walk our different ways..

that breaks me apart inside,

maybe i would never get to see some of u lovely ppl again...

now i wanna thank all my dearest frenzwho walk wit me through tis path...

1st of all, all my classmates who greatly supported me,

during class trip n class t...

i opologize as i kno the class t isn't tat nice,

n im very happy that all u guys,

28 of u ppl who supported me...im really very happpy n touched..

next my artie art frens...

TAM TAM CRAB, FISH. LAI LAI &GWENIE TOO TOO,

i really had so much fun there doin all crazy stuff together,

love u guys all so much,

futher on,

all the frens that will SAM PAT with me,

SI JUN, SHUK PUI, DARREN PIG, SHEN WEN, KIM N....

so many more,

u guys n ppl r lovely, im always happy around u ppl,

although some of u i just know for a year or less,

but i do really like having times with u..

then lastly, ppl who r always there when i ask for help,

first in line, TAM SHER REN,

KGAI TER DARLING, SHUN ZHI ZHI, YONGQING N REBECCA...

TAM is always there for me whenever i was loonely or burting inside

my LAO GONG is always there to encourage me n ever supportive of me,

I rmb when i was at the driving exams...

ZHI ZHI, although v may not speak much,n he says he's INTROVERT,

but he is a very nice n caring guy.

although he may look 'cool' n cold, but.......

as long as i know v r good frenz n i trust him too..

QING, he may seem moody always,

but actualy when he brigthen up,

he is an awesome guy to be around too.

finally, REBECCA,

altough she is not studying here anymore,

but she will always be willing to hear me talk n care bout me..

i really fell in love with high school bcause of u guys,

and i will never loose u all...

will u guys just allow me my selfishness,

u ppl mean so so so very much to me!!